Holy Growth Spurt!

Eleanor is Six weeks old! Wow! This is the most exhausting but rewarding job of my life. I am tired every day and my back hurts every day but I love my little girl so much. Our follow up appointments have gone great! Ellie is right on track with weight gain and her shots. She weight 8lbs 10oz at her 1 month appointment. She also grew a tiny bit in height.. she is now 21 3/4 inches. Mommy is doing a lot better. She lost all her baby weight! Yah!! Now trying to lose more for overall health and vanity. Blood pressure is still not all the way down but making its way. They lowered my dose again but still not completely off. No protein in the urine and my iron levels are good. Doc said my incision is healing wonderfully and the doctor took me off restrictions for lifting and all physical activities.
Its hard as hell to be at home all day with Ellie. There are some days I just want to cry because I am so tired and Ellie is so fussy. This week has been very challenging because Ellie has been going through a growth spurt. Yesterday I fed her 6oz of formula  per bottle when normally her bottles are 4 oz each But she just kept screaming for more food so like the doctor told us we gave her more.. holy cow! Matthew has tomorrow off work and I am thrilled. I need a day off like you would not believe. I never thought I would be jealous of people going to work. I would love for Matthew to stay home one day like I do and go through what I do. By the time he gets home from work she is usually finishing up a nap or ready for a bottle but not nearly as fussy as she was at 10am or noon. Don't get me wrong.. I love being with my daughter and having the opportunity to spend all this time with her but I have such a new respect and appreciation for my mother being a stay at home mom.. it really is the hardest thing on the planet. It will be so hard to take her to day care and go back to my job so I try and enjoy every moment I can.
Ellie is starting to smile now!! Which I LOVE! We play on her playmat and she beginning to not just be a screaming, pooping, sleeping baby.. she actually is now starting to play and have fun expressions. It helps keep my sanity to see her now smile back at me.
Exie has been very good with Ellie and mainly keeps to herself. She does get jealous when I am playing with Ellie on the floor because she was use to me playing with HER on the floor. She still sleeps with us and I still try and throw her toys and give her treats. She has eaten 4 of Ellies pacifiers and that has me really mad. And her pooping and peeing on the carpets upstairs has me livid. When Ellie starts crawling we plan to have Stanley Steamer come back out and do our carpets again and at that time start locking Exie in her play pen.
Well I gata run.